What is humility? What can come from a humbled heart? What does becoming humble even mean? Humility has been trying to be the Batman to my Robin the past several weeks and my heart seems to continually be struggling with the Joker and the Penguin. In other words, God has placed humility on my heart for weeks now and the enemy is not pleased. The enemy has continually been in my head telling me that, "You are stubborn", "You were created this way", "You are this". The enemy is allowing my mind to tell my heart that my stubbornness defines who I am. That my past behaviors and situations define who I am and who I will become. It's slowly and thankfully becoming a realization that this is just not true.
So, what is humility? Humility is where we view our own importance as lowly. Humility makes us patient in our trials and it is something we learn. Humility is something we learn how to grasp the more we grow in our relationship with Christ. Proverbs 11:2 When pride comes, then comes disgrace but with humility comes wisdom. Pride is something we all have. If we say we don't, we are probably just being prideful. C.S. Lewis says, "A proud man is always looking down on things and people; and, of course, as long as you're looking down, you can't see something that's above you". I couldn't have said it better myself, Clive. Thank you.
Psalm 10:4 In his pride the wicked man does not seek him; in all his thoughts there is no room for God. Why do we even want pride? With pride, there is no room for God. With no room for God, there is plenty of room for the enemy. With plenty of room for the enemy, we are going to fall. It's simple really. The second something terrible happens and we let pride in - it's so hard to shut it down. We will fall unless we give it to God and allow our hearts to be humbled. Let me tell you - it is not easy.
There have been several nights in the past few weeks where I have been blinded by the immense amount of pride that has found its way into my vision. There have been several nights where I have yelled, cried, and ran because I let my pride get the best of me. Why in the world do I want to let something so ugly have the best of me? The best of me. Letting go of pride and asking God to humble my heart has been one of the hardest things I've dealt with in my relationship with Him so far. Pride is something that I have just considered a part of me since middle school. I thought it was just 'who I was'. Making something like that 'just who you are' for 10+ years is something that has obviously made a home for itself within your heart. Then, the second it's asked to come out and play it's clearly going to - it's used to it, almost like you're old friends. Giving pride to God and asking for humility to enter your heart instead is a process and it can be ugly. I've seen it be ugly. But, the knowledge that in the long run it will be beautiful is something that I can remember when my mind is rational once again. That knowledge is encouraging.
Therefore, I encourage anyone that if you are struggling with pride - send it on its way. It's ugly and full of hate. God hates it and wants to bless you with the gift of a humble heart. Let Him. Always remember this - Keep on asking and it will be given you; keep on seeking and you will find; keep on knocking [reverently]and [the door] will be opened to you. Matthew 7:7. Remember that. Ask God to humble your heart. With time, with obedience, with knowledge, with love - it will come to you. You may have to go through some ugly first. Actually, you will go through some ugly first. But, remember that once you're through that ugly you'll see beauty. Beauty will always come from brokenness.
Just ask Belle.
She knows all about broken ugliness turning into beauty.
Did you see her Prince Charming?
