Looking at the word broken initially you don't find it very attractive. Yet, knowing that God can heal any and all brokenness makes the word look beautiful. Through being broken, we will rely on Him with everything we've got. There's nothing else for us to lose. I'm thankful for the chance I have right now to find all security in Christ. It's time to be obedient and listen. I've gone through the motions of getting out of 'the pit' I've been in for years now. It's time for action. God has made so many things apparent to me in just a matter of a few days. I'm ugly, mean, bitter, angry, and prideful without Him. I'm conscious of the behavior I need to use, yet I let the Devil take my emotions and I allow them to control me. I need to allow the Holy Spirit to control me.
I'm currently reading Get Out of that Pit by Beth Moore and my world is being wrecked. So much truth is being thrown in my direction and finally I'm starting to listen. The main thing that caught my attention today was this: "We think we want people to lie down next to us, feel what we feel, and give us permission to stay there. But if they do, they help talk us into making ourselves at home in the early grave Satan dug for us. They agree to our living death. Christ got down next to us in the grave, stayed the better part of three days, and then got up...so we'd have permission to get up too. And start living life. Beloved, let this one sink in deeply: if God allowed you to be thrown into a pit, you weren't picked on; you were picked out. God entrusted that suffering to you because He has faith in you. Live up to it. All the way up". Talk about something hitting you in the face. Nothing has made more sense to me than that passage right there. 1 Corinthians 10:13 - "No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; he'll never let you be pushed past your limit; he'll always be there to help you come through it". God will not put us through anything that we cannot get through. If we try to get through it on our own, then yes, we're forming a pit in our life. But, he'll always be there to help you come through it. We need His help and he freely offers it. It's time we take it.
I've constantly struggled with the whole abandonment ordeal. Men in my past became nothing but young boys. I always put my faith in them. I always trusted them. I always wanted them. I always turned to them. What did they do? They let me down. Why? Because they are, were, and will always be human. We as humans are incapable of completely fulfilling each others needs. We are not perfect. We make mistakes. I've always known this, clearly how could you not, but I've never really listened. On the other hand, if I had made the decision to put my faith in HIM who is perfect, trusted HIM, wanted HIM, and turned to HIM things would have been a little different. I never consciously did that. I had allowed myself to stay in that pit of fear, that pit of insecurity, that pit of not being wanted, and that pit of utter destruction.
God is speaking to me day after day. The truth of His word says that He will help me get through my struggles. It's as easy as finding that security, that love, and that freedom from Him. He's our best friend. He's our lover. I've known this my entire life, yet I've been disobedient with that knowledge. The second I actually started to understand obedience I got on a plane and flew half way around the world to a country by the name of India. That's when I started to get hit with balls of fire from the enemy. In India, everything was wonderful. Why? Because I was constantly relying on God and not myself, my emotions, my thoughts, my ways. I was relying on Him. The second I came home from India everything went downhill. Why? Because I was constantly relying on myself, my emotions, my thoughts, my ways. I was letting the Devil get his stronghold back. I wasn't intentionally relying on myself. I know the truth and I know I need to always rely on Christ. But, back in America, I was back in my world. I had my job, my relationships, my amenities, everything that was familiar to me. I wasn't constantly working with God, so consciously I didn't even think to rely on Him as much. I fell back into my pit about a mile deeper than I was before I left for India.
Now is the time to be obedient. I'm learning just this. In the past couple days completely devoting my time to finding myself again with Christ, I've become extremely discerning concerning some strongholds in my life. I'm learning how to flip the truth that I know in the back of my mind to the front of my mind - at all times. It's not easy. But, being in constant prayer and talking to my best friend, He makes it easy. Since when has it been hard for humans to have conversations with their best friends? It's not hard for us as humans to talk. We are social creatures and we crave the attention. Getting my attention from God and listening to His advice is something I should have learned to do a long time ago. It's time that we start allowing God to get us out of these pits that we're in and fully rely on Him. Because remember, He put us into these pits because we were picked out. God put us through that suffering because He has faith in us. He picked us.
Psalm 94:16-19 --
Who stood up for me against the wicked?
Who took my side against evil workers?
If God hadn't been there for me,
I never would have made it.
The minute I said, "I'm slipping, I'm falling,"
your love, God, took hold and held me fast.
When I was upset and beside myself,
you calmed me down and cheered me up.
It's time we allow God to get us out of our pits.
Listen. Have faith. Take heart.
He will hold our hands. He will guard our hearts.
I've constantly struggled with the whole abandonment ordeal. Men in my past became nothing but young boys. I always put my faith in them. I always trusted them. I always wanted them. I always turned to them. What did they do? They let me down. Why? Because they are, were, and will always be human. We as humans are incapable of completely fulfilling each others needs. We are not perfect. We make mistakes. I've always known this, clearly how could you not, but I've never really listened. On the other hand, if I had made the decision to put my faith in HIM who is perfect, trusted HIM, wanted HIM, and turned to HIM things would have been a little different. I never consciously did that. I had allowed myself to stay in that pit of fear, that pit of insecurity, that pit of not being wanted, and that pit of utter destruction.
God is speaking to me day after day. The truth of His word says that He will help me get through my struggles. It's as easy as finding that security, that love, and that freedom from Him. He's our best friend. He's our lover. I've known this my entire life, yet I've been disobedient with that knowledge. The second I actually started to understand obedience I got on a plane and flew half way around the world to a country by the name of India. That's when I started to get hit with balls of fire from the enemy. In India, everything was wonderful. Why? Because I was constantly relying on God and not myself, my emotions, my thoughts, my ways. I was relying on Him. The second I came home from India everything went downhill. Why? Because I was constantly relying on myself, my emotions, my thoughts, my ways. I was letting the Devil get his stronghold back. I wasn't intentionally relying on myself. I know the truth and I know I need to always rely on Christ. But, back in America, I was back in my world. I had my job, my relationships, my amenities, everything that was familiar to me. I wasn't constantly working with God, so consciously I didn't even think to rely on Him as much. I fell back into my pit about a mile deeper than I was before I left for India.
Now is the time to be obedient. I'm learning just this. In the past couple days completely devoting my time to finding myself again with Christ, I've become extremely discerning concerning some strongholds in my life. I'm learning how to flip the truth that I know in the back of my mind to the front of my mind - at all times. It's not easy. But, being in constant prayer and talking to my best friend, He makes it easy. Since when has it been hard for humans to have conversations with their best friends? It's not hard for us as humans to talk. We are social creatures and we crave the attention. Getting my attention from God and listening to His advice is something I should have learned to do a long time ago. It's time that we start allowing God to get us out of these pits that we're in and fully rely on Him. Because remember, He put us into these pits because we were picked out. God put us through that suffering because He has faith in us. He picked us.
Psalm 94:16-19 --
Who stood up for me against the wicked?
Who took my side against evil workers?
If God hadn't been there for me,
I never would have made it.
The minute I said, "I'm slipping, I'm falling,"
your love, God, took hold and held me fast.
When I was upset and beside myself,
you calmed me down and cheered me up.
It's time we allow God to get us out of our pits.
Listen. Have faith. Take heart.
He will hold our hands. He will guard our hearts.
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