Just go.

If I were to rewind my life to last summer, I would never have thought that God would be leading me in the direction that he is right now. Today, as I was praying I couldn't help but cry. I was overwhelmed with joy. I was overwhelmed with passion. And I was overwhelmed with confidence. The holy spirit is working in my heart and telling me several different things. The two regarding my direction with ministry are the two I'm about to discuss. I have never felt more led to do what I'm feeling led to do right now. And after constant worry, fear, frustration, and anxiety over it - I'm finally at peace. And with that peace, I have never been more passionate and joyful in my heart as I am right now.

Teenagers. Who honestly enjoys the raging hormones, the fits of anger, the tears of broken hearts and confused relationships, and the stubbornness that some teenagers will throw your way? For some reason, God wants that to be my ministry. It has never been more clear to me that that is where I need to be. The amount of joy that is brought to my heart dealing with several young kids and seeing their growth is out of this world. The fact that I can sit with them and talk about Jesus and love them is so incredible. That is my passion. I remember being in high school and going to Young Life. The female leaders were so wise, caring, and compassionate and I could do nothing less than admire them. They are my constant inspiration. I'm ready for God to use me however he wants to use me with these kids. I'm willing and I'm ready to go. This passion really became clear to me when I was in India. I had so many teenagers come up to me in particular. They wanted me to pray for them. They wanted me to talk to them. Me. I was on a team with two other people, yet the majority of the people that reacted to them were older. Anytime my discernment would kick in, it always seemed to be towards a teenager. I could always pick out who I needed to talk to. And they all seemed to be teenagers. Most of my contacts were teenagers. God brought them to me. I'm ready God, throw the hormones my direction.

India. If you were to tell me even two months ago that my heart would be running for India, I would have instantly said that you were crazy and there was absolutely no way. Period, end of story. You're out of your mind. Well, God obviously had a different plan for me and was going to throw me into it whether I liked it or not. Every single day, my heart feels for the people in India. My thoughts remember the faces of the people of India. My passion sits with the young females over in India. For their freedom, their hope, their life that only God can give. 

We are called to be ambassadors for Christ -- 2 Corinthians 5:20 "We are therefore Christ’s ambassadors, as though God were making his appeal through us". We are to tell everyone about Christ. I can tell you right now that I would not look forward to 110 degree dry heat with air conditioners that constantly need water put in them, with water I'm not able to drink, and bathrooms I have to squat above to use. But, God can't use us to our full potential if we're comfortable. Where in scripture does it ever say that we will be comfortable, that we will have lavish things, that we will get to do what we want? It's not about us. It's about Christ. We have to be willing. I'm finally at peace with that. 

A wise woman said something to me in a message one day that sticks close to my heart. She said, "None of us should be that comfortable in America, because it's not our home either. American Christians have to work harder at following Christ. They have it so easy that they've left God unemployed. They don't have to live by faith really,and I don't think people really are living by faith unless they are sharing the Gospel and being totally available to Him IN America or anywhere else". Convicting? Yeah, I thought so. I felt convicted to. This is not our home. We are foreigners in America just as much as we are in India or Ukraine. We can't leave God unemployed. We have to obey the call that He has sent our way. If you asked me, "How do you know that's where God wants you?" I wouldn't be able to answer you. I'm just being obedient and following Christ where my heart is leading me. The Holy Spirit finds a home in our hearts. And when that Holy Spirit moves in our hearts, you can't deny it. It's an overwhelming passion, joy, and tug. And if we don't listen to it, we are being disobedient. 

Wherever God wants us he will bring us to it and through it. Yes, I feel called to be in India. Yes, I feel called to be in ministry with teenagers. No, this doesn't mean I pick up and move to India immediately and only work with teenagers. That would just be unwise. But, that's not saying that if I felt called to be there tomorrow that I wouldn't go. I would go. If it's in God's plan for me to be there, I will be obedient. The point is that we have to be willing. Wherever God has us is where He wants us for the moment. So, if we're in an ordinary city with ordinary people, it is still not our home. We still need to be obedient. We need to follow the call wherever God has us right now. And we need to be willing. I struggled with this thought for awhile. I wasn't ready to give up my comfortable life. I wasn't sure where God wanted me to go. It was like I was expecting Him to come down and tell me every single detail about His plan for me. We just have to be ready to pick up and go if God wants it. No matter what, we just have to be willing. It's such a simple concept. But, we let fear take over. 

We can't let fear take over. We must be willing. We can't constantly question everything that God wants for us. This is something He has definitely been convicting me with lately. I question everything. It's fine time I learned though that that defeats the purpose of trusting Him completely. That defeats the purpose of relying on Him. If I'm questioning what He is doing with me, that's questioning His power. And our God is all knowing, all seeing, and all powerful. That disobedience and those question don't help growth at all. We can't grow unless we are uncomfortable. We can't grow unless we are weak. We can't grow unless we are broken. We just have to be willing to be uncomfortable, weak, and broken. 

I can't even imagine my life without telling people about Christ anymore. I have to tell people. I have to go. I'm ready to give my heart, soul, and body for the sake of the Gospel. 

Let's be those ambassadors.